Minutes of Dawn



I walked outside. There seemed to be a mist settling down in the hills of my home. I was awakened by the questions torturing my mind but now I wondered the safety within my mind.

My eyes were blood red, dry, my face burned from the shattering headache. Like a steel rod red hot, driving itself into my head. The mist, with the aid of the wind, wet my face gently. Easing the pain just enough to get my mind together. The record player was just making noise, crackling with a ghastly sound through the halls. The sound waves found their way into my head. A long sigh, love is just a long sigh, I walked inside, put on a new record. The sound of an old guitar, the beat settled in an unorthodox manner. I poured more whisky into a used glass. Lipstick stains. Someone was here. Have I been with someone this whole time?

I heard the gentle footsteps, soft skin pushing down on the cold hardwood floor, somewhat in a hurry. Pitter patters in the safety of the fireplace. She sits down, turns to me, now I can see her face decorated by the reflection of the fire. The confusion still in the gray with me. She smiled, unsure of herself. Good morning she whispered. I set down my drink. Was I imagining her? Come sit she said. Too struck to think I submitted. A warm kiss on my chapped, frozen lips. Good morning love, good morning, if you’re really here.


Tune into the WORLD!




Take a moment, close your weary eyes. Breathe in as if your last breath and let it out like a long goodbye. Clear your mind and relax every muscle, eliminate all thought. When you open your eyes you are going to focus on everything going on around you. Every sound, move, smell and sight. 

Pick one place to stare at and keep your eyes on it like a dart on point. Let your ears flood with noise. For a while, if you’re doing it right, it’s going to be overwhelming. However, just as you were working so hard to master tuning out the outside world as a baby, now you’re going to master tuning into it. There’s a devastating amount of information around you. Every person, each with individual lives, thoughts, emotions, ambitions, fears, turn ons, turn offs. They all occupy that space in a specific time right in front of your eyes for a reason. You’re witnessing beating hearts, breathing lungs moving forward in life. Every single second fading before you realize it even arrived. The world now seems alive, pumping life through its veins, moving, all for a specific purpose: Order in Chaos

Behold, the world! You’re all the same to it. It won’t take care of you, embrace you or be kind to you but it will be the cause for everything that happens. It will be the inspiration to an amazing song, the body of the most humanly poem. It’ll give with most generosity and take with merciless vengeance. It neither loves not hates you. You are here, now. Where do you want to go next? There is nothing stopping you from doing anything you want other than yourself. You are free. What does your heart desire? You’re only a decision away from waking up in a hotel room overlooking the Shanghai skyline or having coffee waiting for the patisserie to open in Paris. You’re a tiny decision away from leaving the job that you hate but took anyway because of the very thing that corrupts your life, money. Everybody’s only concern in the world is money. They see it as a goal and not means to achieve your dreams. People will work their entire lives believing doing what you love won’t pay the bills. FORGET ABOUT THEM! Don’t be afraid to confess your love! Embrace your passions! Move a step closer to your wildest dream! Be spontaneous, be erratic! Realize how little you get to experience the wonders of this world and make it count! 

If you’re still sitting in the same place after reading this, you’re doomed. Don’t think, just go! It’s 06:20 pm in Istanbul and I gotta get a new visa so I’ll leave you with this tea: T